2006 thoughts unshared

These are some of my thoughts. I was trading in the morning suddenly the current went off and came back by 10 minutes. The prices I chose to sell the stock had touched and returning downward. I couldn’t catch up the rate in between also and waited only to sell at the days opening rate. Sometimes I learn from these as what we deserve we get it not less nor more. The trading has made me learn to take quick decision and never bother for the results. I meet different types of people in my walks of life, some inspiring ,some boring ,some arguing , some in their own world and so on. Every time I ‘m fortunate to talk with one of them I take back a lesson quite useful to remain who I am. There was the beginning of this year with lots of tantrum in my minds for failing myself with my sadhana and blaming everyone for it. What a misery? I understand when mind wanders behind everything how much dirt it collects as a result confusion, which in return create havoc around. I had some sort of these experiences in the early part of this year. I ‘ve to credit all these to my irregular meditation and for my choices made in the past. Though I was struggling hard to come out somewhere the needed medicine was given by my Master. I surrender and kept moving with His Grace. I found some relief. I’m now in the process cleaning all these dirts collected in the process and it is taking some time to complete its process which is testing my patience. The mind remembers the days I was sitting in meditation and experiencing the deep layers of silence which is found difficult now. Yes indeed after long gap of irregular meditation it is to be expected. Thanks to my Master ‘s Grace without which I’d have not been able to survive. Again I’m with my Master involved in His great work, I thank Him and Masters for this opportunity given for both me and my wife along with some of friends. I’m enjoying the process and am aware how much I was out of tune. I’m hesitant to talk what I thought and scribbled, on some topics. Maybe there is not enough force behind my preparation. There are disciplined actions behind every success which most of us fail to watch. I was told to fake until you make it. Faking how far it takes near to our goals I don’t know. But a proper and organized thoughts and actions definitely produce marvelous results. I’ve failed to implement this principle in my life, every time one or the other is missing delaying my success. I’m also persistent to see myself with every qualities required to succeed.