How I met my GURU

The relation with my Guru and my Spiritual Masters are the best. NO one has ever loved me unconditionally as my Guru and My Masters. Even with parents we might experience conditional love, Guru has always guided us to the right from the wrong directly or indirectly. Masters always hold our hands and made us walk on the right path. We can only feel them, if one ask for proof its difficult. They are beyond our logics science can understand. We see many Guru’s and spiritual Masters on TV, who is the real on?One should exercise a bit of common sense here. Are we helped to move from Darkness to Light? Is the person posing as Guru’s Living the teaching? Simple living is little difficult. Finding the Right Guru is also difficult. Trust the Universe for this as when we are ready God will direct us towards our Guide somehow. Once met we’ll melt in his Pure energies he channels. He’ll understand and protect our interest untill we reach the goal. There can never be any kind of proof for all these things we need to experience in our life to know the Truth. I met my Guru, in 1999, the year I lost my great strength, my father. October,99 brought me closer to a spiritual path which once I visited in 1995, I joined just to build my network of friends . I don't know how this idea transcend to my higher search, my Guru guided me in every way. I took time to accept Him, Its difficult to understand His work and ways. Its huge and can be understood only when we have experience expansion in the inner world.

Bhuvi and my feelings

It is last Sunday; we have been to JPNagar house. I and Punya got up in the morning and traveled back to Taponagara. Bhuvi went to her father’s place in Vijaynagar. Monday the day went well. In the morning I had some what strong feeling for Bhuvi and there was a pulling effect towards her. I sms my feeling to her. There was contemplation running in my mind. There is so much given why we fail to see? Why there is so much of expectation in us? Bhuvi is one of the best gifts in my life. I love her but expressing it is very difficult. She in my life has brought much happiness. Why I forget this? Why she can’t understand me? Whenever I want to give her what she likes before things begin to shape she messes it. I’m not rich person, neither am I well settled. I just need time to settle financially and then she can enjoy life in better way. She craves for small things of life and forgets that it can be got any time in the life. Things changes only for the better and if we wait we’ll get only the best of the time. How can I make her understand this?

30 th September 2006.

Early in the morning there I got up hurriedly and linked with the universe to share my love. Followed with the beauty of the morning sped towards Taponagara. First half of the session went OK, but second was full of thoughts unwanted un-necessary but at the end there was light full in my body for 10-15 minutes I did not want to end but session ended. Hope I get more time with this sort and more with the lights. I’m Light and anything which contradicts to my nature will be rejected from my system. I’m Soul and my system is full of this Divine vibration and I radiate the same to the world. My love for everyone and everything flows unconditionally. I enjoy the life here on this Earth and grow with the Light Beings.

Weakness

I’ve been telling others how to overcome their weak points. There are weak points in me also why am I not concentrating to overcome? Least Expecting, can I do my work? Can I concentrate more on the higher experiences rather than the holding lower experience? People whom I help, looks like growing with a speed and sometimes I become complacent with my own growth. That should not happen. I need my personal growth also. The way others are improving I’m happy, at the same time there is a reminder that I need to grow to lead further. Contemplate and implement. Sometimes when I’m working with others, their non positive qualities would have affected my internal environment and if forgot to cleanse immediately, which I have done so many times, have to suffer with the challenges It brings internally and externally. Always the best method is to cleanse the system with regular meditation and exercises. Let us try to keep our temple clean and neat with positive energies vibrating. Some of the things I observed within, that there are urge to explain others my understandings. This can be avoided to the needs. I have observed that utilization of given time at present is absolutely going waste on unproductive investments. Why men go crazy about sensual pleasures? No doubt I like it but at the same it is very temporary and lives for less time. I think experiencing it in moderate will be good. Sometimes I moderately overdo. There is continuity of unproductive habits in me at present, not to say that I’m totally nerd. The little habits have to “let go” and I need to take up work in its place. I think then things will become better. Yep, work more work is my focus, I’ll be doing it and with the grace of the Guru will shine bright.

Mom, me and tough times

Thoughts which surfaced in my mind today,,,,,17th Oct,10 From past couple of months I’m been juggling with the internal disturbance caused due to one mis-communication between my mother and me. She don't understand or I’m unable to understand the reality. Either of the one is happening with us. Presently my mind is crowded with anger, jealous, dissatisfaction, hurt, so many feeling mixed and has been the source of my internal non peace. I’m trying to keep myself aware of these influences but still it persist in its own ways. Meditations are not enough. Thoughts passing are very dangerous and don’t lead to peace for either of us. If I look the effects of following the thoughts it creates disasters. Who am I? What is my purpose? Why is that I’m facing these kind of challenges continuously in my life from past 11 years? There should be some reason or reasons for all these occurrences. I want to understand the root cause of these disturbances. I choose Light and its ways always. Is it my testing time to follow what Guruji had taught me? I need to be alert and utilize every opportunity to grow with His grace. Good it’s happening …..These problems or opportunities….let they help me to grow and choose the highest, the best,, always … Let me lead by example to others. Time to implement all I’ve learnt ….time to experience the vastness of the Divine and become Him… Sarvam Guru Krupa……..I surrender to Him who knows what is best to me at any time.

Anger, early of august 2010

I’m very angry today for some reason in the family. I feel my family use me and throw me at their will. Do not bother about how I feel? Why are they so ignorant? Why can’t they learn or understand that others are also human? They feel that they can do whatever they can at their will and never bother for others. How can they be so ignorant? How can they be so rude? How can they be faking? We can handle many people outside the family but, when the family members, elders do mistakes how can we handle these? I choose Light and peace, the strength of Light. But how long we should get assault from these people in the name of ignorance. I pray Light to give me Justice for my love. Is there nobody to teach these people the value of Love? Peace? How many more days Mother Earth wants to carry the luggage of these burden, why cant they be removed from this Earth. Let there be peace in me, and every where. I’m peace, I’m love, I’m Light. With this strength connected and tuned to Light, I pray Light that let these people who are so proud of their possession, be deprived of their possession. Let them learn the value of Love and Peace in their life. Let them be cornered and made to choose Peace and Love or let them perish.

2006 thoughts unshared

These are some of my thoughts. I was trading in the morning suddenly the current went off and came back by 10 minutes. The prices I chose to sell the stock had touched and returning downward. I couldn’t catch up the rate in between also and waited only to sell at the days opening rate. Sometimes I learn from these as what we deserve we get it not less nor more. The trading has made me learn to take quick decision and never bother for the results. I meet different types of people in my walks of life, some inspiring ,some boring ,some arguing , some in their own world and so on. Every time I ‘m fortunate to talk with one of them I take back a lesson quite useful to remain who I am. There was the beginning of this year with lots of tantrum in my minds for failing myself with my sadhana and blaming everyone for it. What a misery? I understand when mind wanders behind everything how much dirt it collects as a result confusion, which in return create havoc around. I had some sort of these experiences in the early part of this year. I ‘ve to credit all these to my irregular meditation and for my choices made in the past. Though I was struggling hard to come out somewhere the needed medicine was given by my Master. I surrender and kept moving with His Grace. I found some relief. I’m now in the process cleaning all these dirts collected in the process and it is taking some time to complete its process which is testing my patience. The mind remembers the days I was sitting in meditation and experiencing the deep layers of silence which is found difficult now. Yes indeed after long gap of irregular meditation it is to be expected. Thanks to my Master ‘s Grace without which I’d have not been able to survive. Again I’m with my Master involved in His great work, I thank Him and Masters for this opportunity given for both me and my wife along with some of friends. I’m enjoying the process and am aware how much I was out of tune. I’m hesitant to talk what I thought and scribbled, on some topics. Maybe there is not enough force behind my preparation. There are disciplined actions behind every success which most of us fail to watch. I was told to fake until you make it. Faking how far it takes near to our goals I don’t know. But a proper and organized thoughts and actions definitely produce marvelous results. I’ve failed to implement this principle in my life, every time one or the other is missing delaying my success. I’m also persistent to see myself with every qualities required to succeed.

Oneness

Practicing Oneness in our daily activities has made it part of my life. it is a good experience... one should try.Oneness has led me to connect to the positive part of life as there are positive and non positive part equally distributed around us. The universe supports us with the choice we make in connecting to positive or non positive. Abundance is what we receive... so be careful about our choices. As far my journey concerns I'm enjoying everything falling in front. More to share while the journey takes ahead with many more experience of learning from the universe.Expect me ASAP...